I can make it another 12-14 months here. I can get up everyday, have my coffee,work, and go to sleep. Do the gym thing. Get in the best shape I can. I will work everyday to ignore the fact that I have never been happy here and never will. It is simply impossible. It is like running in circles and never getting anywhere. I have tried every way I know of to be satisfied here and nothing works. It never worked in high school and it certainly doesn't work now. I just don't fit here. It's a great place for those who fit here. It's not like Austin is a horrible place. It's just been horrible for me. For whatever reason, people here just don't *get* me and I am so tired of trying to make them care. I've spun myself around in circles so many times here that I am dizzy from trying to be what they want. I have to live somewhere where me and the place go together. I felt that way in Florida and in New Orleans.
Life goes on and all I can do is chalk it up to bad luck or fate or whatever that I hate this town. Again, maybe its just me...so many people say they love it. I'm sure they do. But everyone's experience is an individual one and for me, this place is full of nothing but fakes and fools and liars.
There's not much else to say right now. I'll still post from time to time...perhaps...when the mood strikes me. I'm tired of *declining* LOL (even in a 'plush' sense)...it's time to resurrect myself and start anew.
...life's like a movie...write your own ending :)